Honesty

I recently decided to start up a diary again. It’s been years since I had one and I’ve kind of gotten to a point where I need to get a lot of things out on to paper. (virtual paper)

The last couple of months I’ve been struggling a lot, with myself. I’ve had no motivation to craft or do anything that i really enjoy - and it doesn’t seem to be getting any easier.

I’ve had a lot of history come to the surface, a lot of personal things to sort through, a car accident in my 6 month old baby, my puppy having an operation and other bits and pieces that have really brought me down.

I’ve come to realise that I only have one friendship that is there for me always and helps me when I’m down. I don’t have anyone that I can just call up last minute and go hang out with. I seem to just have a lot of acquaintances but very few friends and that’s making life hard.

I make all these beautiful pieces of jewelry which I’m really happy with and I think are awesome, but I have no one to give them to.

I know that everyone has it tough and I’m not THAT person who thinks that there life is the worst and everyone should feel sorry for them… and that’s the last thing I want. But the past 10 years of my life have been a total roller coaster. I’ve lost a lot of people who I cared a great deal about. Some in death, some in disagreements, but a lot of them I couldn’t tell you why because I don’t know myself. (I wish I did)

I do so much for the people in my life, the people who mean something to me. At the drop of a hat I am there for them, they need something made – I do it right away, I am supporting them every way I can… But I don’t seem to get anything in return. All I want is a thank you but mostly; I get nothing.

I’ve given up on going all out and giving 100% to people that just don’t support me back.

I’ve decided to set some goals for this year to improve my head space and get me enjoying life again:

1. If something is bothering me, im going to say something. Im not going to bite my tongue and just pretend there’s nothing wrong.
   
   
2. I’m going to spend more time doing things for me. Im all about helping friends/family, but I need some time for myself too and when they don’t help me why so I put in soo much of an effort?!
   
   
3. I am going to re-design my website. I’ve hated it since about a month after I launched it… I don’t think anyone goes there and I want to change that.
   
   
4. I’m going to craft more. This works with ‘2’ because having some time for myself means that I CAN do ‘4’.
   
   
5. Im going to try and focus on the positive things in life.
   
   

These five goals are a starting point. I have more that I a bit too personal to post. Im going to try and accomplish these goals and improve where im at currently.

I’ve been reminded recently that this year I turn 25.

I just don’t know where the years have gone and I want to be able to look back in another 10 years and see that I am no longer where I am now. That I am a happier, confident and positive person.

Im sorry about posting that on a blog that is ment for craft but I don’t think anyone actually reads my blogs anyway and I had to get this out into the world.

xx

Smorgy 

I dont want to be this person anymore

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Broni Album Launch

Last night i got to get see my mate Broni launch his new album 'To Get Her  Together'.
It was an awesome night at The Wesley Ann in Northcote. The night started off with Broni great friend Gimp making a surprise appearance. He has been traveling overseas for some time now and flew back just for the gig.

The opening act was SheBlondeSwede and it was brillant. He got the crowd singing along and warmed up for when Broni went on stage.

It was a nice intimate venue and was a night enjoyed by all.

The reason i bring up this gig is (not only because of how awesome the album is) because i made some new merch for Broni. Keyrings, Zipper Pulls and magnets. And while i was creating these i decided to make some Broni earrings to wear to the special occasion.

The earrings came out awesomely adorable but with my little ears and oddly shaped head they didn't really suit me so i didn't end up wearing them on the night. BUT i wanted you (all two of you) to see them.

Modeling them...

 

And they even suit the guys...

 Let me know what you think. Oh and please go check out Broni's album. At the moment you can choose your own price to get the digital download and i tell you it's worth every cent you can spent. So get it now!

xx
Smorgy Pin It

Learning something new

Over the last week i decided i wanted to learn to make these cute little ribbon things.

They've come out looking really awesome and i'm having lot's of fun coming up with ideas of what to do with them.

Here are a couple of things i've made.

I've made one other pair of earrings. Which i will reveal next Friday at my friend Broni's album launch which everyone better be coming along to. You can purchase your tickets right here

xx

Smorgy Pin It

Just a quickie

I've not felt motivated at all to do any crafting. Finding it hard to find the time when i am motivated.

Went away on a 10 day cruise which i will blog about soon i promise.

But just to give myself some presence on my blog, here are some photos of the last lot of resin pieces i made last year.
They aren't great - The pieces or the photos. But resin takes practice. 

 

Blue sparkly Skull

 

Clear Gun

 

Clear Space Invaders

More pics can be found on my facebook page

xx

Smorgy

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Memories from 2010

So 2010 was an exciting year. A lot happened and here is a short list of some of the more excited things.

January

Was mostly spent working on my website and try to get it to a point that I was happy to upload it for the world. (Note: it is now in desperate need of an update)

February

I had my first attempt at working with resin and loved it. Even though I haven’t perfected it yet, I still enjoy getting it out and making a mess.

March

BJ and I went to the Mary and Max exhibition in the city. Had a visit from one of our USA friends Chappy. BJ and I also got to experience Tapas and Korean BBQ for the first time… Delicious!

April

I met Rich Fulcher!!! We appeared in our friend Broni’s music video and took my niece to the zoo for the first time.

May

BJ’s car decided to break down in the middle of a major road and the police had to push him out of the way. 

 June

Their was my niece’s 4^th birthday (not to mention a heap of other birthdays). I started re-organising my room and our good friend Kelly came to visit us from Canada (via Canberra).

July

Was BJ’s birthday where he got the AWESOME Freaks and Geeks yearbook box set. I bought a new massive tv for myself, got a little crafty for a friend and got out our box of souvenirs from our last trip to get us excited for the next.

August

Had me crafting some more before the trip. We saw Stephen Lynch Live. BJ and I celebrated our 5^th anniversary together. Then we headed back to the States for a month of travelling and catching up with great friends (Oh and had many trips to Disneyland)

September

We continued our time in the states. We got to go to Nashville and visit the honkey tonks, we spent a weekend having a massive barn party. But the biggest highlight of all… we calved our first pumpkin J

October

I bought a new car!!! We saw Mariachi El Bronx live and up close. Went to the Tim Burton Exhibition. Oh and it’s was my birthday

November

Saw me spending time with the people I love with a trip to the Miniature Trains and I clicked over the 600 kmh mark in my car. (Slow month)

December

I got a little creative again. My niece and I made a gingerbread house for Christmas. BJ and I had our first paint balling experience. I got my old car ready to sell and we bought in the new year with some good friends and fun.

Good times, Good times... Looking forward to move fun in 2011. 

xx

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50 New-To-Me Movies for 2010

In 2010 i decided to try and watch 50 movies I'd never seen before and i managed to succeed (squeezing two in on the 31/12/10).

Here is a list of what i saw

January:

• Fantastic Mr Fox – 4/5 – Very enjoyed the animation and story. Definitely not a children’s film.
• Degrassi goes to Hollywood – 3/5 – Wasn’t like watching Degrassi, but still fun to watch.
• Iron Man – 3/5 – Even though not much really happens I enjoyed watching it. I don’t know if it’s just because it’s Robert Downey Jr or because it was good :P
• Nine – 2/5 – Completely cut all of Kate Hudson and it would be watchable again. But it’s no Chicago.
• Mary and Max – 4/5 – Animation was awesome, Story was fucked up but I loved it

February:

• Synecdoche New York – 1/5 – I just hated it. DONT WATCH THIS!!!
• Funny People – 3/5 – I enjoyed it, it was better then I heard it would be. Long but actually funny.
• Running with Scissors – 2.5-3/5 – I was shocked to find out it was a based on a true story. It was crazy (literally).
  

March:

• Alice in Wonderland – 2/5 – It was alright but not great. Tim Burton needs to stop ‘burtonizing’ every movie ever made and write his own again.
• He’s just not that into you – 2/5 – It wasn’t fantastic. Your typical chick flick with the happy ending. But I liked it
• Post Grad – 2/5 – It was an average film. Only watched it because Alexis Bledel was in it. But it had a pretty big cast.
• Kick Ass – 4/5 – BRILLANT!!
• The men who stare at goats – 2.5/5 – I enjoyed it. It was a little silly, but wasn’t a waste of time.
• My name is Bruce – 2.5/5 – Oh my god… hahaa. I wasn’t expecting anything special and it was soo stupid, but sooo brillant.
• Cop Out – 3/5 – It was great. Very funny.
• Harold & Kumar 2 – 2.5/5 – Yes a lower rating but only because its not a masterpiece. It is however very funny and stupid

April:

• Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist – 3.5/5 – A fun movie, without being stupid.
• Whatever Works – 2/5 – Who’d of thought Larry David could be worse then he is in Curb.
• Where the wild things are – 3/5 – Beautiful film. Amazing costumes. But I worry if I think about it too much ill like it less.
• 27 Dresses – 2/5 – Its predictable but not boring. I love the comment ‘its great because you can shorten it and wear it again’

May:

• Rachel’s Getting Married – 2.5/5 – I was not expecting an arthouse movie so I was a bit surprised. It was a bit all over the shop and a lot didn’t make sense (eg: Indian themed attire for the wedding).
• Whip It – 3.5/5 – I really enjoyed this film
• Iron Man 2 – 4/5 – GREAT!
• Best In Show – 3/5 – Funny mockumatery of a dog show

June:

July:

• Paper Heart – 3/5 – It had it’s funny moments but I was expecting it to be funnier
• Toy Story 3 – 4.5/5 – Beautiful way to finish up that trilogy
• Inception – 4/5 – Very well done.. Wrapped up in the end perfectly
  

August:

• Im Reed Fish – 2/5 – Wasn’t anything special. Was expecting it to be better           
• Hot Tub Time Machine – 5/5 – BRILLANT!!!
• She’s Out of Your League – 2/5 – Wasn’t terrible, had funny moments
• Band Slam – 2/5 – Was entertaining.. Put it on to fall asleep to but watched the entire movie
• Scott Pilgrim vs The World – 2/5 – Wasn’t as good as people said it was
• Wedding Crashers – 2/5 - Laughed a bit but nothing really memorable
• + watched half of 'I Love You Man' (Haven't counted it as i haven't finished it)

September:

• The Karate Kid – 2/5 – Enjoyable but not fantastic (I love Jackie Chan)
• Streetdance – 1/5 – Soo bad but had to finish it
• Sherlock Holmes – 2.5/5 – Not as good as I thought it’d be
  

October:

• I’m still here – 4/5 – Very different but good.
• Easy A – 4/5 – It was entertaining!
• Buried – 4/5 – Very different. And thankfully they didn’t fuck up the ending
  

November:

• The Social Network – 4/5 – well written, well acted
• Jackass 3D – 5/5 – Hilarious
• The First Daughter – 1/5 – Poo
• The Bunny House – 2/5 – Funny… ‘Mysterious’
• The Vicious Kind – 4/5 - I dont know what to say. Wow
  

December:

• Forgetting Sarah Marshall – 3/5 - Enjoyable. Cant complain when VM is involved
• Sex and the City Movie – 1/5 - Terrible
• Dukes of Hazzard – 2/5 - Watchable.
• Harry Potter and the Deadly Hollows – 4/5 - It was made to line everything up for the final part... And it did that very well
• The Actors – 2.5/5 – I wasn’t really in the mood for it I don’t think, but it was enjoyable
• When in Rome – 3/5 – I loved the cast, it was goofy but fun

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