The last few months have been fucking insane!! Crazy!! Lot's of highs!
It's been nearly 5 years since I wore it and just as long since I last looked at it. Last night I whipped that bad boy out and threw it on. I couldn't zip it up myself which had me feeling a little disappointed but then BJ swooped in and saved the day.
I haven't posted anything in the last 6 months, but SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED!!!
Since my last post, we went on our first family holiday. A week in Loch Sport, just the 3 of us and it was perfect. A chance to get away from it all and relax a little which is something I don't get to do often as I'm always working.
BJ quit his job of 7 years which he hated AND we started our own business!
There have being some lows over the last 6 months too but I'm really trying to focus on the highs and keep a positive headspace.
2017 was a life changing year! We have taken a massive risk with BJ quitting his job and putting everything we have into starting a business and that's put a lot of added stress onto our lives. There has been lots of long hours, sleepless nights and very little family time but we are making it work. Doing everything we can to succeed and really build a better future for ourselves.
2017 was also the year and I decided to finally pull my finger out and be healthier.
When I was pregnant with Audrey I was sooo sick that I lost an enormous amount of weight over the 9 months. I couldn't eat most things, I went to hospital at one point because I couldn't keep anything down and so after giving birth I went a little silly. After 9 months of not being able to enjoy all the foods I loved, I splurged a lot and that I managed to gain the weight back pretty damn quick.
I got to a point that I was miserable. I hated looking in the mirror. Hating all my clothes and just wanting to hide all day in my hoodie and trackies. I kept going to kmart and just buy their $8 relaxed tees, a little bigger each time to hide my shame.
I finally made the decision to get healthy. I got on a strict meal plan, cut out 90% of my sugar intake and put a total ban on fast food. Apart from my clinical pilates class I didn't really commit to any exercise. I work two full time jobs and have a 2 1/2 year old so finding time to exercise is not easy and I didn't want to send my body into shock with too much change all at once. But in 12 months I've lost over 12kg!!
This week I had an urge to try on my wedding dress. Curious to see if it would fit.
It fit!! Perfectly!! It's a miracle!!
In the last 5 years soo much has changed. My body is completely different. I've had a kid! Things aren't where they used to be. But it still fits!
I was really excited that it fit and even more excited that when I had it on and I looked in the mirror I thought to myself 'If I was to get married right now, I would pick the same dress'.
There are lots of things I'd change about my wedding day, but my dress definitely isn't one of them and that makes me really happy.
But the best part about trying my dress on, was seeing the look on BJ's face. I could see straight into his heart. I don't think he's ever looked at me like that. With THAT much love in his eyes.
I think I might try it on again in 5 years and see how it fits then.
This year I have some goals that I hope to achieve both personally and for the business.
I want to bake more - for myself and other people.
Continue working towards my weight goal.
Grow our business and really make it something amazing.
and make BJ and my relationship EVEN stronger.
We are 3 months into 2018 and things can only get better from here!!!
xx
