No I am not stealing produce

I might look like I'm trying to steal a head of lettuce under my shirt but I'm just 26 weeks pregnant. My baby has grown and it is obvious to others now instead of just looking like I had a massive dinner.

Last week BJ felt the baby kicking for the first time and the look on his face was amazing! It was so great to see him smile and look genuinely happy and excited about what he'd just felt.

Since then she always seems to stop when he tries to feel her kicks. But for me it feels like she never stops. Constantly turning, kicking and stretching.

This year has been rough and it's nice to have a moment where we could both forget about all the shit thats going on and smile about whats to come.

I am now rockin' the maternity pants and my tshirts are getting quite tight. Adding the word 'maternity' to things is like adding the word 'wedding'.... The prices goes waaay up. Sure Target has a maternity section, which is reasonably price but you have to be a size 8 and be ok with wearing fuckin' ugly clothes.

On the other hand though Target have some adorable baby clothes. We were there on Saturday and randomly decided to purchase some little outfits. Squirrels, watermelon and cacti on tiny little baby clothes, what could be better?

Oh and I got this sweet maternity jumper. (Please ignore my tired face, I had a horrible sinus infection at the time)

xx

Smorgy

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A Full Plate

So far in 2015 I have found out I was pregnant, suffered from hyperemesis gravidarum (severe morning sickness), struggled with every day things like work and doing dishes, eating proper meals, prepared our house to go on the market and sold it. 

It has really been a crazy, busy year so far and we still have so much more on our list before this baby arrives in September. The most important thing is finding a new home and moving in the next couple of months.

I have been pretty upfront and honest about my struggles through this pregnancy. When people ask me how I am I generally sugar coat it but if they ask more in depth questions I answer them truthfully. I have had many a day lately where I have thoughts about our decision to try and get pregnant and wonder if we made the right one. And I can honestly say that I do not enjoy being pregnant at all. It has not been an experience I will look back on and cherish.

I know it's going to be a distant memory once the baby comes but right now it's full on.

I'm 24 weeks along and am starting to look pregnant. The belly no longer stays hidden. I'm really self conscious about it and I am not looking forward to people grabbing at it. 

I do however I really like the look on BJ's face when he see's it. He has a look of happiness and excitement, which is nice to see.

I am TRYING to focus on the positives of this pregnancy. The main obviously being a happy, healthy baby girl at the end of it all. Our eyes were a bit bigger then our stomach when we filled our plates this year.

xx
Smorgy

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Dem Pregnant Feelz

I honestly thought that I would be waaay more emotional when I got pregnant.

Don't get me wrong. I've had some emotional breakdowns over the past couple of months but I thought with all the hormones going crazy inside me that I'd just start crying uncontrollably or getting mad over stupid little things.

For the most part this hasn't been the case. Even though I have been soo frustrated, feeling sick all the time I haven't had too many moments where I felt like 'Why did I just start crying?!'

One evening I had a panic attack come out of nowhere. The only reason I can think of is because I struggling to eat the dinner BJ had prepared for me. I ended up getting into such a state that I vomited what little I had eaten and then I cried for about an hour because I broke my puke streak.

And on one of the days that I wasn't able to do much of anything due to lack of energy and feeling like death, I found myself crying in bed while I watched this video on my phone.

It's the stupidest thing and I have no idea why but even now just checking that I had the right video, I've gotten a little teary. 

Damn you Bruno Mars!

xx

Smorgy

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Touring September 2015

A week ago BJ and I decided to announce our big 2015 news and we were overwhelmed with the a bombardment of congratulations, excitement and support. Thank you everyone!

I am now just shy of 14 weeks pregnant and let me tell you it has been a rough couple of months. BJ and I have known since I was only 4 weeks along and in week 5 I was already starting to feel quite under the weather. By week 7 I couldn't keep much food down and when week 8 hit I couldn't even stomach anything, not even water. 

Week 9 began with me going to the emergency room for some much needed fluids. A 3 hour wait before I was given a bed, by this point it was 10pm. I was soo dry that it took 4 attempts before the they successfully got a vein... and then the fluids began. After the first bag i felt hungry and got given some midnight sandwiches. The second bag of fluids had me drinking water again and after the third I was feeling much better.

That was a rough night. BJ was home looking after the boys and worrying about me while mum was by my side asleep in an uncomfortable armchair. She stayed with me until 7.30am the next morning then not long after BJ joined me and entertained me until it was time to go home.

I was covered in bruises and still feel very weak and empty, which isn't surprising since I lost about 10kg over my first trimester. But after some good advice from the doctor I finally found the way to manage how I was feeling. 

I have missed quite a lot of work these last two months which has not helped me feel better because I'm constantly worrying about falling behind (which I have... A LOT!)

My mum (and Boss) has been soo supportive and helpful throughout all this and I'm soo thankful for that.

But I have also had BJ here looking after me. He has stepped up and just taken control of our household. From the food shops to cooking dinners to cleaning and running around for me. He has been soo amazing. I'm pretty lucky. 

Each week he will come who with the shopping and a special treat for me to try and make me feel better. He's kept the washing under control and this week he even did a heap of painting. He makes my lunch and fills my scripts. He is the best husband I could ask for and I am so lucky to have him while I go through all this.

Right now I can hear him cleaning and organising stuff in the other room while I lay here in bed at 11.37am on a Saturday with my two fluffy boys cuddling up with me for warmth, nibbling on original potato chips for breakfast because that's what the baby wants. 

I hoped that when we finally told everyone a weight would be lifted and I would just start feeling back to normal. I am definitely better then I have been but still have a bit to go before I can get myself moving in the mornings and cook my own food and just stand on my feet for more then 5 minutes. 

I haven't been able to write about anything lately, stayed pretty quiet on Facebook because the only thing I had to say was that I felt sick. It was a challenge to keep the secret, a lot of family members guessed because the 'Megan's sick' excuse got a bit old very quickly. Fork This has been on a hiatus because we really haven't been doing anything worth filming. 

I hope that all that will change soon. 

xx

Smorgy

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'New To Me' Movies of 2014

Every year I keep a list of movies I've never seen before and set a goal of how many I would like to see for the year. For 2014 I had 75 as my goal and I achieved that (and then some).

So in no particular order here is my top 10 movies of 2014. 

1. Her
2. Dallas Buyers Club
3. The Princess Bride
4. The Jerk
5. Mud
6. The Grand Budapest Hotel
7. The Way Way Back
8. A Mighty Wind
9. The Kings Of Summer
10. Guardians Of The Galaxy

With special mentioned to The Room and Frankenhooker for being two movies that i will never forget.

And here is the list of everything I watched in 2014:

January

1.     Anchorman 2 – 3/5

2.     Gangsta squad – 4/5

3.     Saving Mr Banks – 3.5/5

4.     Her – 4/5

5.     Dallas Buyers Club – 4/5

6.     Wolf of Wall Street – 3.5/5

February

7.      Blue Jasmine – 3/5

8.      Robocop – 3/5

9.      Nebraska – 4/5

10.   Princess Bride – 5/5

March

11.  Barton Fink – 2.5/5

12.  Veronica Mars 4/5

13.  The Jerk – 4/5

14.  Mud – 4.5/5

April

15.  The Room – 0/5 (But will be watch many more times)

16.  Drag Me To Hell – 3.5/5

17.  Captain America: The Winter Solider – 3/5

18.  Serendipity – 3/5

19.  The Grand Budapest Hotel – 4.5/5

20.  In Your Eyes – 3/5

21.  The Queen of Versailles – 3/5

22.  Vulgar – 3/5

May

23.  Filth – 4/5

24.  The Way Way Back – 4/5

25.  Ender’s Game – 3.5/5

26.  The Big Bounce – 2/5

27.  Afternoon Delight – 3/5

28.  A Mighty Wind – 4/5

29.  Last Vegas – 3/5

30.  The Double – 2/5

31.  Manic – 3/5

32.  Hope Springs – 2.5/5

June

33.  Julie & Julia – 3/5

34.  Eat Pray Love – 2/5

35.  Before Sunrise – 2.5/5

36.  August – Osage County – 4.5/5

37.  22 Jump Street – 2.5/5

38.  Only Lovers Left Alive – 3/5

39.  Transamerica – 3/5

July:

40.  Frankenhooker – 2.9/5

41.  Mighty Aphrodite – 3/5

42.  The Kings of Summer - 4.5/5

43.  The Great Buck Howard – 4/5

44.  Living In Oblivion – 3.5/5

August:

45.  Step Brothers – 3/5

46.  Guardians Of The Galaxy – 4/5

47.  Cuban Fury – 2/5

48.  Spiderman 2 – 2/5

49.  The Fault in our Stars – 3.5/5

September:

50.  Sunshine Cleaning – 3/5

51.  Locke -3/5

52.  The Station Agent – 4/5

53.  Spirited Away – 4/5

54.  Chef – 4/5

55.  Frank – 3.5/5

56.  In The Soup – 3/5

October:

57.  Swimming With Sharks – 2.5/5

58.  Jersey Boys – 3/5

59.  Event Horizon – 1.5/5

60.  Wish I Was Here – 4/5

61.  Happy Christmas – 3/5

62.  This Is Where I Leave You – 3/5

63.  The Story of The Descendents & All – 4/5

64.  Machete Kills – 4/5

November:    

65.  Gone Girl – 3.5/5

66.  Lust For Love – 3/5

67.  Land Ho! – 3/5

68.  Sound Of My Voice – 3/5

69.  Let’s Be Cops – 2.5/5

70.  Interstellar – 4/5

71.  The Kings Speech – 4/5

72.  Godzilla – 2/5

73.  Dawn of the Planet of the Apes – 3.5/5

74.  Rudderless – 4/5

75.  The Imposter – 3.5/5

76.  Hunger Games: Mockingjay – 3/5

December:

77.  Tusk – 4/5

78.  The Skeleton Twins – 2.5/5

79.  Mistaken For Strangers – 4/5

80.  20,000 Days on Earth – 3/5

81.  X-Men: Days of future past – 3/5

82.  St Vincent – 4/5

83.  They Came Together – 3/5

84.  Afflicted – 3.5/5

There were some really amazing movies watched this past year and some really unforgettable ones. I have decided to aim for 80 movies this year and I'm already three in. 

xx

Smorgy

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Gordon "The Wrecking Ball" Cole

xx

Smorgy

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